My spiritual journey: moments of clarity, ponderings, and vast irritations

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Is it passion or curiosity?

When I finished reading chapter 7 of Christian Coaching it got me thinking about passions. What am I passionate about? Is this life coaching thing another rabbit trail in my journey, or is it going to be something that ignites a flame inside me? It's somewhat hard to tell this early into it. Sometimes our passions are locked away deep inside waiting to be discovered! Right now, I think I'm curious. But I'm curious about a lot of things that I could never envision myself doing for the rest of my life. :)
There are things that I know about me: I KNOW I'm passionate about my music. I KNOW that I want a college degree, and I KNOW I love psychology and that I am enjoying this class leaps and bounds above the counseling classes. It's much more my thing than that was!
But after that it's kinda hazy....
Is it what I wanna do the rest of my life or what I can simply "see myself doing'?
Is it going to make me happy or leave me truly fulfilled?
Is it going to just suit my personality or is it going to place me into that perfect niche that God created me for?
Will I be living out my dreams?
Is it passion or curiosity?

Wednesday, January 19, 2011


I am not a nothing. I am not small, diminished and unimportant. That insignificant me died. Wanna know the really awesome thing about death? Resurrection! I am ALIVE! I died so that I can have a freaking awesome and amazing resurrected life with the glory of Christ glowing through all the uniqueness of my personality! Yeah. That's Christianity. Not me getting out of the way, but Christ creating a better me and living through me. Us together in living unity!

Romans 6:6 For if we have been planted together in the likeness
of his death, we shall be also in the likeness of his resurrection:

Romans 6:11 Likewise reckon ye also
yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God through
Jesus Christ our Lord.

Colossians 2:12 Buried with him in baptism, wherein also ye are risen with him through the faith of the operation of God, who
hath raised him from the dead.

Colossians 3:1 If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.

I am not waiting for resurrection, I am resurrected -- as Christ died, I died; as Christ resurrected, I resurrected. And this new life is supercharged! Look at Ephesians 2:

At salvation we were 'quickened' which means "made alive together."

At salvation we were 'raised up' to sit in heavenly places, which means "to raise up together from mortal death to a new and blessed life dedicated to God"

Interestingly, this Greek word (synegeirō) for 'raised up' is the same word used in Col 2:12 and 3:1, so it clearly refers to THE resurrection life.

Paul doesn't just say this is something we will have 'some day,' he makes it clear that it is a spiritual reality NOW. We are resurrected.

I am not only resurrected, I am a brand new creation.

II Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is
a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

The old me died, I was resurrected as a new me with the life of Christ as my very breath. I think one of my favorite verses is Galatians 2:20 which says, "I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me."

Seriously, this whole life is no longer the old, insignificant, messed up me. It's the brand new, alive me. Paul says he is crucified, but he's ALIVE cuz JESUS is alive in him (It would be wrong to say "I no longer exist, because Paul clearly refutes that thought here, and that would leave us with a bunch of Christians with identical personalities, likes, dislikes, temperaments, etc. Kinda weird doctrine there!). So, I'm a brand new, God-creation and the alive thing about me is Jesus and the new-creation me.

OK, how do I say this clearly... All of my personality traits, my temperament, my gifts, talents, etc. Everything that makes me the person that God created me to be is now FREE to shine out PURELY and beautifully the way he intended, all to the glory of God! I can stop fretting about screwing up this Christian life, because he has taken care of it all! He has already made it so I can't screw it up. It's all him now. It's all him and the real me. The true me. The perfect awesome me. He has made me whole and new and amazing, and he did it all at the moment of salvation!


So why is it that as Christians we are constantly putting ourselves down and ragging on our imperfections? Why do we think God needs us out of the way so he can do his work? He chose us, he loves us, he indwells us, he recreated us in his image and we are no longer in that fallen mess that we used to be, we are perfected in Him, and we are ALIVE! Do you realize how empowering that is? God has made us "meet to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in light: (Col 1:12) and has reconciled us to himself in order "to present [us] holy and unblameable and unreproveable in his sight: (Col 1:22)"

Good stuff! We aren't nothing. Hear that voice in your head? Don't listen to it! Oh, and by the way... this is another blog entirely, but you weren't a nothing before salvation either. Everyone is significant. John 3:16 FOR GOD SO LOVED.... :)

Tweaking purpose statement...

This is definitely a work in progress :)

I am still not sure on the finished project, but here are some thoughts.

I have a great desire to lead others to discover their identity in Christ, to find their purpose, and to live their full potentials in the abundant life God desires for them.

Not exactly the same thing as counseling. Hmmm... Life coaching starts this week, it will be interesting to see if that fits into the picture!

Previously my purpose statement read like this:
"My purpose is to use my effervescence and people skills through writing, music, and personal relationships to counsel those who are in bondage and to lead them into the freedom of worshiping God in utter abandon."

Guess I need to drop the "to counsel those who are in bondage" I'll have to post a blog sometime on how God spoke to me on not being a Christian counselor. It was very definite.

Anyway, feel free to comment with suggestions!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

John Lynch

If you ever get a chance check out John Lynch's vlogs on youtube :) He's the author of Bo's Cafe and True Faced, both books on my MUST READ list. Although I haven't read the books, I have had opportunity to conference call with John Lynch and get to know him a bit on facebook and through his short messages online. I love Christ in John! His understanding of grace is fantastic. Here's his most recent upload:

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Why am I taking Life Coaching classes at Liberty this semester?

As I have mentioned here before, my passion is music. I write music, sing, play keyboard, etc. Of course, I blog and write books (none published yet! I have big dreams... :) But all with a focus on taking people out of bondage and bringing people into living the abundant life God created them to live so that they are free to worship God in utter abandon!

I have discovered that I do not want to counsel people so much as help them to find out what exactly God has made them to be.

Not many years ago I was ready to quit living because I didn't think that I had a 'purpose' for existing. God has showed me differently and I hope to bring this message to others!

Know what's crazy? When I decided to discontinue Christian counseling classes at Liberty, I said that I wished they offered Life Coaching. I thought that would fit me better. The next day I had an e-mail saying they would be offering life coaching classes for the first time this spring. Sounded like God to me! So I enrolled, of course! Who knows what God will do!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

2011 Abundant Life!!

Square peg fitting in a round hole for too long??? Make 2011 your year to discover God's marvelous abundant life for you!! Get outta there and find YOUR purpose. Yes, God has a place where you will thrive and fit in perfect fulfillment of your unique personality, temperament, gifts, and especially that inner hearts desire you have almost forgotten. (You're excited already, aren't you!!)